Sick and tired of being sick and tired
I was just finally sick and tired of being sick and tired. So here is my story and why I know any who wants it, can get it.
Born and raised in a small town an hour north of Detroit and born to two alcoholic parents.. Played hockey my entire childhood. Unfortunately, this gave sick and twisted indivuals time to abuse me, and they did so for over 10 years and to top it off, they did this almost daily to me. My hockey arena was the safe place and I would go at any chance.
In my teen years I turned to isolation and marijuana on a daily basis. Hung with the bad people, to make myself feel better. Did the wrong things in life to make my life a living hell, by lying, running, and never being me. I didn't like me, due to the abuse so I got high to make that feeling go away. Both of my parents drank excessively and were never around and this just allowed me to up my intake of drugs.
Now when I was about 20 I decided to start drinking* (My father would get sober when I was 25). Yeah well, this lead me to being a complete alcoholic within a year and then turning into a drug addict as well, as I started to snort cocaine in large amounts. From age 21-34, it didn't matter what I did to stop and didn't matter who wanted me to stop, but I couldn't. I was consuming a 1,000.00 a week in cocaine and always drunk. I did this and held great jobs that paid me way more than I was worth. At my peak of using I slept under my desk, and had employees completely on board to cover up for me.
June 27th 2009, I was sick and tired of being sick and tired and walked into a AA club in Daytona Beach. My father had built this club and was 11 years sober when he passed away from lung cancer. On this day, I had had enough. I knew there was a better way of life and someone had something planned for me. It took me about 6 months to come to believe that a power greater than myself could actually do something for me. Since the day I got sober, I've been able to build a few succsessful companies. My main employee pool comes from the local transistional housing programs. Us alcoholics/addicts shouldn't be shunned, so I go out and actively look for more of us and give them a chance at a job and to get back up when they are down. So far I've been able to touch the lives of more than 32 alcoholic/addicts.
Someone once told me that praying is speaking to god, and meditating is listening to god. I've taken that and practice it everyday in my life. Today I couldn't be more grateful to the life I've been blessed with. In all of this I've been blessed to have a wife who is my best friend and 2 kids that I couldn't be more proud to be a dad of!