I was adopted when I was 3 years old. My new family brought me to the other side of the world, even though the language was the same, accent and slangs were different and was hard to adjust my self to that.
My father’s mother hated me for I was the constant reminder of her son’s incapacity of bearing a child and she could never forgive me for that, she humiliated me constantly and that made my childhood really hard.
I was brought to live on a farm, with no children around me, my only friends were my horses for nine long years.
My new cousins were cruel with me while we were children, more so since my mother always put them before me.
My mother never learnt to be a mother for me, not at least until I got married and had children of my own, it took her almost 30 years to behave as a mother with me. While my father, in a confused sense of “love” over protected me so much that I ended up feeling breathless.
The family driver sexually abused me. My grandmother abused me psychologically, my mother did it both physical and psychologically.
Later on I wanted to study journalism but the only University that granted that title in the city was a public and very poor in academic level. I made all the paper work to be admitted in a University in Spain but, when I told my parents about it my father told me that if I left, I will be killing him. I never got the chance to study a career.
My husband was a good man but our marriage begun to have problems early, after seven years it gradually turn into a lonely life for me, my only joy came from my kids.
When my father died I felt lonely as never before in my life, I felt I had no one to care for me and started drinking.
I ended up in a rehab centre where after the worst three months of my life I came out clean.
I have been clean for six years now and can only tell any addict that, there is always hope to change for better and for good.
Staying in addiction is a sure way to destroy yourself and those around you.
Coming out of it, gives one a overwhelming sensation of success, fight against addiction and do it for yourself, only if you have something inside you, you will be able to share with others.