My name is Leeann I’m an addict and I have been clean since 12/24/1982.
My name is Leeann I got clean on December 24, 1982. I was twenty three and chronic alcoholic by the age of twenty one. I started drinking at age 17 1/2. The first time I drank I blacked out and was sexually assualted. I tried couple attempts at treatment. I drank and used codiene to avoid feelings and it allowed me to interact with others. The problems with drugs and alcohol is it created problems and situations that I couldn't control. I drank with people I didn't like or wouldn't associate with when sober. I drank daily and would wreck my car and lost many jobs. Would just walk off jobs. I was type of drinker once I started I didn't stop till I exhausted all options. I drank and used from age 17 1/2 to 23. I went to recovery support meetings and would have brief periods of abstinence.
Then in December 1982, I surrendered my addiction and started working 12 steps of recovery. It wasn't easy back then most people getting clean were lots older.. It was a miracle I made it to my first year, then two and next thing you know I've been clean 30years. I changed my life, my choices and my thinking. I accepted I was an addict and I couldn't use chemicals. I don't miss it anymore, I the early years it was hard. I made it harder on myself. You have to change playgrounds, playmates and playthings. I eventually became an addictions counselor and worked for 13 years. I turned my life around and helped others. I worked with criminal population and felt they were most difficult but was very rewarding. I still attend recovery support meetings. I have some friends today that I have had for at least 28years. I learned that to keep my recovery I have to give back. So if you don't think you can do it just try for today. One hour or one minute at a time. It works when you work at it. Put as much effort into staying straight as you did at getting high. Ask others for help. Good luck on the road to recovery.