My Life My Recovery
Hi! My name is Taylor, and I am a recovering addict! No, I'm not ashamed to admitt that, well not anymore. My drug of choice was marijuana, so no I never thought I had a problem...Always just thought I was a stoner. But that wasn't the case. Getting high ruled my life, and when I didn't have my own stash, I was with friends that would share. I used pot to alter my thinking and feeling, so that I wouldn't have to face the reality of each day. I started smoking when I was 13, and never really stopped for nearly 6 years. Throughout this period I struggled with depression and used drugs to self-medicate. Though had you asked me then I would have denied it through and through! In September of 2012 I met the person who would introduce me to AA. At first I went to spend time with her, and stayed at the meeting to save on gas instead of running around until time to take her home. I would sit there and listen, but didn't yet believe that I belonged there. After a few meetings I saw that I did indeed belong inside those walls. I started to really, truly listen and began to see the massive similarities between myself and the people who were speaking. After receiveing my 24 hour startover token I spent nearly a month sober. Then I relapsed, twice! But at the next meeting of my home group I asked for and received another startover token, a sponsor, and an accountability partner. It was amazing! To see and feel the love of these people who barely knew me, and didn't even know me beyond the walls of that room, truly astounded and humbled me. This is day 22 of my sobriety, and I am beyond excited to receive my month token. I am finding new faith, and building that relationship with my higher power.
It's not easy, by any means, and I won't try to tell anybody that it is. But It Is Worth It!!!! I'm not preaching AA or NA, but I will tell you that it has worked wonders for me. It's so much more than a program, it's a family that I know I can count on to be there for me from rock bottom to the the top and back again. Every addict is only alone when they choose to be<3