I am an alcoholic. Sober for over 14 mo's. Spent time behind bars...3 dui's. Auto accidents in 2 of the 3 dui's. Recommitted my whole life to Jesus. I now have NO desire to consume any alcoholic thing. Went through Gateway treatment program provided through the state of MO. It helped me identify several thinking errors & several false core beliefs. I was able to confront myself in the eyes & hearts of others as well. There is help. There is hope. I'm HIV+, diabetic type II, high blood pressure. I work out 3 times/wk, eat well, weigh 195lbs. I'm 52, divorced.