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a new beginning

I started using weed and alcohol at the age of 15, and a few months after I had my daughter and my 18th birthday I got into meth. I lost custody of my daughter, threw away jobs, relationships and entire life. I started dealing which destroyed my life more. My relationship with my best friend of 6 years who was also the love of my life was destroyed because both of our addictions. I kept hitting a deeper and deeper rock bottom, and eventually became suicidal. I cut my arms and legs , isolated and was depressed beyond help. My ex kicked me out multiple times, and I finally decided I couldn't do it anymore. I went to the state for help and was in in-patient before the month was over. When I got out, I relapsed for 2 days because I had some reservations...but I promised myself that as soon as it was gone, I would never touch it again. I left my home and was homeless traveling all over the state to be clean. I finally decided to start outpatient in a county by my mom's, and the outpatient helped me get into an oxford house. I've been clean since august 26th 2012, and my life has changed drastically for the better. I go to meetings everyday, do servicework by chairing, live in an oxford house with 9 other wonderful women I consider family, my daughter is back in my life, and most of all I'm learning to love myself and am extremely proud of myself. I had dug a hole so deep, and the only way to go was up. A ladder with 12 steps has been lowered into my hole - and with each new day I strive to live a better and happy life. One day at a time:)

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Categories: Alcohol, Family, Mother, Loss, Homeless, Marijuana, Methamphetamine, Recovery, 12 Steps

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