25 YEAR SLIDE

I WAS 22 AT THE TIME-  MY GIRL WAS A HAIR CUTTER, SHE DID SIDE JOBS. ONE DAY SHE TOOK E TO A JOB AND THERE WAS A BIG BAG OF POWDER AND THE GUY PUT IT IN AMMONIA FOR A LONG TIME AND IT CAME OUT AS A 6 INCH ROUND 1 INCH THICK CIRCLE, I ASKED WHAT IT WAS THEY SAID IT WAS COCAINE AND THE BEST HIGH EVER. SO AS AN ADDICTIVE PERSONALITY I GOT HIGH, AND IT WAAS THE BIGGEST HIGH I EVER HAD..LOOKING BACK I WISH I NEVER WENT OUT WITH HER. IT WAS THE START OF A BEAUTIFULL BUZZ RELATIONSHIP. SO I DID NOT RUN INTO IT AGAIN TILL I WAS 29 AND I HAD A DIFFERENT GIRL, I TRIED TO REACH OUT TO HER BUT SHE JUST GOT RID OF ME. AND WE JUST HAD A BABY AND I NEVER SAW HER AGAIN - I AM NOW 47. I WAS IN SCHOOL FOR ELECTRONIC TECH LOST HER, MY BABY AND SCHOOL. I WAS 29 AT THAT TIME.SO I DID MY DIRTY DEED ALONE FOR A WHILE 'TIL ONE DAY I FOUND A GROUP OF CRACK HEADS, AND IT TOOK AWAY THE PAIN AND FOR THE NEXT 4-5 YEARS I SMOKED ON EVERY OTHER WEEKEND. TILL I MEANT THE GIRL I AM WITH NOW..I WOULD SNEAK AWAY TO MY APT. AND GET HIGH EVERY WEEKEND, A GUY I KNEW, WE TRADED OFF WITH EACH OTHER, ME 1 WEEK HIM THE NEXT. SOMETIMES OTHERS WERE THERE AND IT WOULD LAST DAYS UPON DAYS. I WAS ON DISABILITY And cheap rent so i had alot of money and they had rich parents so we had parties we should have died from. She thought i was cheating on her so i had to move in with her or not have a person to feel something for. so i told her the tuth and she said to have them come to her house, biggest mistake she ever made since i have known her, about 1 year now. after that i could not stop the people from coming to her house nor did i want to. she of corse got tired of all the people all the time 24/7. every week i was the runner so most times i got high for free .who can turn that down, rite? well we faught all the time and after 3-4 years she left, who can blame her!! anyway, it got worse still every day only more of it got more people hooked and they of corse they came to me. i got the best deals in size and grade. all of them wanted me to introduce them to my guy. yea rite..and loose my buzz.. so for the next 5-6 years it was all the same. one time i drove to the er and sat in the parking lot cause my eyes were moving back and forth so fast i could not see. but still i was on the pipe till i passed out. woke up 15 hours later and no ne even checked on me- i should have died that day like mavy others..

SO THAT WAS THE DAY I TOLD MY SELF I HAD TO FIND A WAY TO STOP THE WAY I WAS LIVING/WELL DYING. IT TOOK A LITTLE OVER A WEEK TO FIGURE A WAY TO DO IT. SO I CALLED MY EXGIRL AND ASKED HER TO COME AND SEE ME. EVEN AFTER THE HELL I PUT HER THRU, SHE STILL SAID YES..AFTER 3 WEEKS I ASKED HER IF I COULD MOVE IN WITH HER- SHE MOVED TO A FARM HOUSE. I HAD NO CAR SO I COULD GO NO WHERE AND THAT WAS THE GREATEST GESTURE I HAVE GOTTN FROM ANYONE. IT SAVED MY LIFE. I AM CLEAN FOR 6-7 YEARS NOW..IT TOOK MY CHILD, THE BEATS OF MY HEART I CAN'T GET BACK, MY HOUSE MY 3 CARS AT THE SAME TIME. PLUS THE FRIENDS ALSO. SHE SAVED MYLIFE. 

THERE IS A LOT I LEFT OUT CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHO WILL READ THIS SORRY FOR THAT, CAUSE IT COULD HAVE HELPED...SO THIS IS RICK SAYING I LOVE YOU AND IF YOU REALLY WANT TO QUIT GET AWAY FROM THE TOWNS AND MOVE TO THE COUNTRY WITH SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOU..

I REALLY WISH AND HOPE /PRAY FOR ALL OF YOU THAT THE EVIL HAS HOLD OF. GOOD LUCK BY THE BUCKETS CAUSE IF YOU DON'T WANT TO STOP YOU WON'T..